somethings on my mind.

i used to listen to this song alot when i lived in portland. I just wanted to move to home to the country. I was longing for peace. It starts at the 4 minute and 15 second mark.


Now i live here:



and somethings are better but still there is something on my mind and i am trying to figure it out.



I talked to my friend andrea and she recommended me to read "letters from a young poet" by rilke. She quoted this, "so you must not be frightened if a sadness rises up before you larger than any you have ever seen; if a restiveness, like light and cloud-shadows, passes over your hands and over all you do. you must think that something is happening with you, that life has not forgotten you, that it holds you in its hand; it will not let you fall. "

I am going to the library tomorrow to pick it up after I wake up at 6 am to babysit for a dear friend.

i am slowly becoming a pessimist (as i crack a smile). HORRAYYYY!!!!

I watched breakfast at tiffany's today.
"I'm like cat here, a no-name slob. We belong to nobody, and nobody belongs to us. We don't even belong to each other".

then this came on my itunes shuffle.



oh dear. i am hoping for hope. I am also hopping for hope (turbo jam).

PACE, Shliz.